I apologize for not posting essays with more frequency. Concerning PTSD, I’ve plenty to blather about, especially in the holiday season. After all, for many of us, myself included, holidays are times of heightened PTSD triggers. So, why am I not writing? I got injured.[Continue Reading…]
Why? Because the holidays … holi-daze … emphasis on “daze,“ are upon us again! We are back in what I call the “18% PTSD Danger Zone” that stems from around Veterans Day through Epiphany next January. It is a time period when PTSD triggers are gruesomely prevalent and we are at even greater risk of alienation, isolation, and self-harm.[Continue Reading…]
This essay is lengthy and speaks to my ability to continue with this website. It’s rather personal. Pack a lunch and dry socks.
Since posting last, nearly five weeks ago, much has occurred: it feels as if I’m alternating between the decks of two different ships, circling one another on a rather choppy sea. One is a Ship of Light and the other is a Ship of Fog. Sometimes, they collide with one another.[Continue Reading…]
PTSD tends to hate it when we do anything positive with other people or when we do anything that is either productive or creative. Any of those items promotes love and life … and, as we know by now, PTSD hates love and life.[Continue Reading…]
Memorial Day: We’ll get our share of drive-by caring and plastic patriotism. In some areas we will have to endure fireworks. And, we will have to deal with the specter of those afflicted with Compassion Deficit Disorder (CDD) … nothing quite like being blamed for having PTSD, sensitivity to triggers, and living in a fear-state, just because we “couldn’t hack it” or because we are “cowards.” The news media, practicing a predictable “calendar journalism,” will show a brief uptick of interest in those with military service.[Continue Reading…]
In spite of more coverage, and one would then hope, more understanding, there are still stigmas that goes with PTSD. We are often harshly judged and criticized for the basic fact that we are human enough to have been wounded by traumatic events.
The drive-by caring crowd often pulls their vampiric ghoul number on us. They attempt to splash around in the malarial swamps of both our past traumatic experiences and our ongoing present suffering from PTSD and other wounds.[Continue Reading…]
PTSD wants to give us an involuntary heart transplant.
It wants to replace a warm, beating, heart with a cold as ice, mechanical, heart. It wants to change out a heart that is loving, warm, and willing to be vulnerable, with a clockwork machine, which is indifferent to itself and others, and is so scared it refuses to risk opening up to others.[Continue Reading…]
PTSD and infidelity often go together. Should you stay with a spouse or partner with PTSD who cheats on you sexually? Is the PTSD an excuse for infidelity, or is the person just an asshat who is a cheater with or without PTSD?
I had two encounters with the phrase “Make a Statement!” recently. In both cases it related to buying cars. And, as is often the case with me, I started thinking about the phrase in terms of PTSD and Spirituality.[Continue Reading…]