PTSD Spirituality: Feeling Guilty, Feeling Too Responsible

Trauma survivors often feel too responsible for things over which they have had no control. This is one of two extremes that PTSD often inflicts upon us. One extreme is that we feel too responsible for outcomes which we have no control over. The other extreme is that we feel no responsibility for anything, including our own actions. This latter extreme is often associated with spouses and partners who become promiscuous and uncaring after surviving trauma. This essay will focus on the first extreme.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Defeat PTSD-Identity with Art and Creativity

Learning to Draw

Learning to Draw

Art and any form of creativity help us to heal from our PTSD.  Creativity beats back PTSD’s assault against our personal identity, against our sense of self. PTSD wants us to feel we are worthless, we have no value, and that we are so tainted by trauma that there is no hope for us. Exercising creativity can be painful, physically, psychologically, and spiritually, but the pain can help us heal and defeat the PTSD-Identity.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Unrelated Triggers, Booze, and Hot Dogs

Hot Dogs and Corn on the Cob

Hot Dogs and Corn on the Cob

One of the many “joys” of having PTSD is that we can get triggered by events and situations which have nothing to do with our initial traumas. Depending on levels of stress one can be more susceptible to activation of their PTSD symptoms and behaviors. Such has been my life of late. O’ Joy, O’ Bliss! Lucky Me![Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: You Are Not Weak, You Are Wounded and Strong

Raptors Like FlowersRecently, those of us with PTSD were further stigmatized by being labeled as weak by a major party presidential candidate. He stated that military personnel who are not strong enough have gotten PTSD. This is a false statement, probably based on ignorance and not malice.

If you have PTSD, you are not weak. You have plenty of strength, plenty of character. It is not a case of not being strong enough. We have been wounded both physically and spiritually. Trauma wounds our brains and it wounds our souls.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Trust, Dickweeds, and Vampires

Half Cup

Half Cup

PTSD will endeavor to make us refuse human contact. It wants us to be isolated from healthy relationships. It wants us to disintegrate as social and spiritual beings. As bad as that is, PTSD-survivors can be pushed into further isolation due to issues with trust, or encounters with dickweeds and/or vampires (And, yes, I used the word “trust” in a sentence).[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Expect Intensity in Relationships

Feathers

Feathers

People with PTSD can have successful relationships, even with other people who have PTSD. Yet, PTSD adds extra challenges to our relationships. One of these additional challenges is intensity. When PTSD endeavors to change our identity it attempts to turn the intensity dial to one extreme or another. PTSD makes us intense, sometimes too intense.

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PTSD Spirituality: Anger Mistakes, Sanctification, Future Choice

PTSD wants to wound us and render us feral. It wants us to despair in our wounds: physical, mental, and spiritual. It wants us to never realize we are on a sanctification journey, that we can still receive divine grace. PTSD wants us angry and letting lose with our anger. Having wounded others or maybe just belittling ourselves, it wants us to believe we can never be forgiven.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Notebooks, Meaning, and Life

PTSD tends to hate it when we do anything positive with other people or when we do anything that is either productive or creative. Any of those items promotes love and life … and, as we know by now, PTSD hates love and life.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Another Memorial Day … Damn

Fair Warning: This is not a “Patriotic” essay.Dragon Grapihte 2

Memorial Day: We’ll get our share of drive-by caring and plastic patriotism. In some areas we will have to endure fireworks. And, we will have to deal with the specter of those afflicted with Compassion Deficit Disorder (CDD) … nothing quite like being blamed for having PTSD, sensitivity to triggers, and living in a fear-state, just because we “couldn’t hack it” or because we are “cowards.” The news media, practicing a predictable “calendar journalism,” will show a brief uptick of interest in those with military service.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: PTSD Seeks Our Disease (WB)

Send More Catnip!It is no secret that PTSD seeks to destroy us. It desires to make us unstable, unpredictable, and unreliable. By doing so, it corrodes our best and most healthy relationships (Yikes! The cat just explored the keyboard – again – and I need to retype some things). So, even the cat agrees, PTSD is out to harm us and then to harm others by rendering us unpredictable (Meow! Make him stop typing so he’ll get back to petting me!)…er, umm, well, it seems I have a co-typist today.[Continue Reading…]