PTSD Spirituality: Sick of PTSD, But Our Lives Still Have Value

I’ve been physically sick again.  Flu and PTSD memories make a lousy combination.  I’ve been busy trying to write down more of my own personal PTSD experiences.  I’ve been writing partly for the VA and partly for my children.  The VA has their purposes.  The writing of my personal trauma legacy for my kids, who[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: “For Wounded Vet, Love Pierces the Fog of War” in WSJ

Surviving traumatic events changes our lives and our relationships.  Beyond the pharmaceuticals and physical therapy there lays the extra something that is needed to better survive – and perhaps heal some aspects – of our PTSD soul wounds.  Love is one of the necessary ingredients to a successful journey with PTSD.  This is true for those who have military-induced PTSD and it is also true for those who have survived trauma as a civilian. [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Jason Moon, Trying to Find My Way Home

Artwork and creativeness can help us heal from our spiritual wounds, especially when those wounds are inflicted by PTSD.  For some of us, we find healing in music and writing.  After all, in art is life.  For many of us, regardless of how we were traumatized, we spend the rest of our lives “Trying to Find My Way Home.”  That is also the title of Iraq War veteran Jason Moon’s most recent CD.  Jason connects his lyrics and music with the experience of post-Iraq PTSD.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Prayerful Healing is a Sanctification Opportunity.

Human beings afflicted with PTSD’s soul wound often find themselves in denial.  They often self-medicate in ways that further damage their health, spirituality, and relationships.  Even after we stop denying we have PTSD we are still often trapped in a cycle of coping that just digs a deeper hole for us to be buried within.  While we ought to embrace the medical side of PTSD treatments, we ought to also embrace a way to strip off some of the PTSD-tar from our souls.  We need some way to reconnect to the image and likeness of God that dwells within each of us.  The PTSD-Identity desires us to forget and deny that we have any connection to the divine, to the Light and Love that is God.  How do we reclaim our soul’s Light and Love from the alienation produced by PTSD?[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: PTSD, Trust, and Worst Case Scenarios

Our PTSD Triggers can not only initiate our PTSD symptoms, they can also create new stresses and anxieties that are not directly tied to the initial PTSD-producing traumas.  We may begin to unduly focus on “worst-case scenarios” due to the harm we have received to our PTSD-damaged sense of trust and safety.  While we must keep alert to the fact that not all anxieties and stresses in our lives our signs of PTSD, we should also be aware that PTSD has a “Mission Creep” all of its own.  This “Mission Creep” can [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: PTSD, Elite and Joe Normal

The stalking horse of PTSD made several guest appearances over the last several days.  In the grey land that encourages one to despair of ever seeing hope on the horizon, this last weekend has been a blessing and a curse.  The curse was provided from several angles that ranged from the [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Veteran’s Courts, PTSD, and a Developing Sensibility

Many veterans with PTSD are trying to end their suffering through a method called “Suicide by Cop.” This is where a PTSD afflicted individual causes a “man with a gun” notification to go out over police radio. The police respond, there is a standoff, the PTSD person then points or fires his weapon at the police, and they kill him. It is a form of suicide generated by the PTSD-Identity. Sometimes the PTSD afflicted person will even yell out “Shoot Me!” to the police. In today’s[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Yesterdays, Today, and Tomorrows

Granted that the Beatles did not write a song called “All of
My Yesterdays, Todays, and Tomorrows,” I kinda wish they had.  This year, my PTSD journey could be called by that title.  I am reminded of this by a comment a Vietnam Veteran left and that I have heard from many other Vietnam veterans.  It goes something like this: [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Dealing with Setbacks and Hopelessness

Part of the PTSD survivor’s journey is dealing with setbacks.  Things are running relatively smoothly in one’s life, avoiding self-medication, controlling anger and trust issues, and staying careful about known triggers.  Then suddenly there is a PTSD episode.  Symptoms flare up, often a relationship gets strained or annihilated, one may return to alcohol, drugs, or porn to offset the memories, to offset the burden of feeling one’s own existence so acutely.  At this moment, the PTSD-Identity will encourage you to give up hope, isolate yourself from healthy relationships, take the drugs, and eventually kill yourself.  What can we do?[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: One Thing Led To Another

Yesterday morning at around 1130 I had to remember some of my memories from when I was in the service.  Suffice that there were some good reasons that I had to do this.  In the space of 2 to 3 minutes I went from being articulate and able to hold a conversation to being confused, stuttering, and having troubles with my memory.  This led to numbness in my limbs, headache, the shakes, fear, and a prolonged weeping, crying jag.  Then it got worse.[Continue Reading…]