Trauma survivors often feel too responsible for things over which they have had no control. This is one of two extremes that PTSD often inflicts upon us. One extreme is that we feel too responsible for outcomes which we have no control over. The other extreme is that we feel no responsibility for anything, including our own actions. This latter extreme is often associated with spouses and partners who become promiscuous and uncaring after surviving trauma. This essay will focus on the first extreme.[Continue Reading…]
A period of thawing out from PTSD’s ice tomb of isolation can occur as we learn how to understand and manage our PTSD. As we crack out of our PTSD-induced Ice Age, we become less frozen in terms of our relationships with our own selves, our various communities, God, and the Creation. Like a Spring thaw it can be a period which allows for the germination of new life. And like a Spring thaw, it can rapidly melt the ice and raise the water over our head. In this sense, the process of thawing out from our PTSD isolation can feel like a two-edged sword.[Continue Reading…]
Recently, those of us with PTSD were further stigmatized by being labeled as weak by a major party presidential candidate. He stated that military personnel who are not strong enough have gotten PTSD. This is a false statement, probably based on ignorance and not malice.
If you have PTSD, you are not weak. You have plenty of strength, plenty of character. It is not a case of not being strong enough. We have been wounded both physically and spiritually. Trauma wounds our brains and it wounds our souls.[Continue Reading…]
PTSD will endeavor to make us refuse human contact. It wants us to be isolated from healthy relationships. It wants us to disintegrate as social and spiritual beings. As bad as that is, PTSD-survivors can be pushed into further isolation due to issues with trust, or encounters with dickweeds and/or vampires (And, yes, I used the word “trust” in a sentence).[Continue Reading…]
This essay is lengthy and speaks to my ability to continue with this website. It’s rather personal. Pack a lunch and dry socks.
Since posting last, nearly five weeks ago, much has occurred: it feels as if I’m alternating between the decks of two different ships, circling one another on a rather choppy sea. One is a Ship of Light and the other is a Ship of Fog. Sometimes, they collide with one another.[Continue Reading…]
People with PTSD can have successful relationships, even with other people who have PTSD. Yet, PTSD adds extra challenges to our relationships. One of these additional challenges is intensity. When PTSD endeavors to change our identity it attempts to turn the intensity dial to one extreme or another. PTSD makes us intense, sometimes too intense.
PTSD wants to wound us and render us feral. It wants us to despair in our wounds: physical, mental, and spiritual. It wants us to never realize we are on a sanctification journey, that we can still receive divine grace. PTSD wants us angry and letting lose with our anger. Having wounded others or maybe just belittling ourselves, it wants us to believe we can never be forgiven.[Continue Reading…]
Memorial Day: We’ll get our share of drive-by caring and plastic patriotism. In some areas we will have to endure fireworks. And, we will have to deal with the specter of those afflicted with Compassion Deficit Disorder (CDD) … nothing quite like being blamed for having PTSD, sensitivity to triggers, and living in a fear-state, just because we “couldn’t hack it” or because we are “cowards.” The news media, practicing a predictable “calendar journalism,” will show a brief uptick of interest in those with military service.[Continue Reading…]
In spite of more coverage, and one would then hope, more understanding, there are still stigmas that goes with PTSD. We are often harshly judged and criticized for the basic fact that we are human enough to have been wounded by traumatic events.
The drive-by caring crowd often pulls their vampiric ghoul number on us. They attempt to splash around in the malarial swamps of both our past traumatic experiences and our ongoing present suffering from PTSD and other wounds.[Continue Reading…]