PTSD Spirituality: Another Memorial Day … Damn

Fair Warning: This is not a “Patriotic” essay.Dragon Grapihte 2

Memorial Day: We’ll get our share of drive-by caring and plastic patriotism. In some areas we will have to endure fireworks. And, we will have to deal with the specter of those afflicted with Compassion Deficit Disorder (CDD) … nothing quite like being blamed for having PTSD, sensitivity to triggers, and living in a fear-state, just because we “couldn’t hack it” or because we are “cowards.” The news media, practicing a predictable “calendar journalism,” will show a brief uptick of interest in those with military service.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Why Deny the Possibility of PTSD?

Why do PTSD-sufferers sometimes refuse to admit they have PTSD?  Some trauma survivors will deny they have PTSD.  Their PTSD-coping behaviors damage themselves and their most important relationships, but they refuse the possibility of PTSD even though they have survived trauma.  At times, someone who earlier recognized they may have PTSD may later deny it.  What gives here?  What follows is not so much an essay as quick thoughts written during my latest round of insomnia.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Finding Redemption in Our Stories and Our Art

I read a powerful essay by a Marine Corps Captain who reflected on his service in Afghanistan. CPT Timothy Kudo notes the apparent disconnect most Americans have between what happens in the States and what our military must contend with in Afghanistan.  While his observations are certainly true concerning how “normal Americans” (whoever they are) can’t grasp [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Judas, Peter, and Choosing the Right Path

Guilt corrodes our soul like acid on pink bunny slippers.  PTSD survivors often grapple with guilt. Guilt can lead us to despair and self-destruction.  It often causes us to give up hope, lash out at others, and even kill ourselves.  How do we live with guilt?  How do we get rid of it?  The New Testament narratives of Judas Iscariot and Simon Peter offer us examples of legitimate, self-earned guilt, and how to respond to it (or not). [Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Veteran’s Courts, PTSD, and a Developing Sensibility

Many veterans with PTSD are trying to end their suffering through a method called “Suicide by Cop.” This is where a PTSD afflicted individual causes a “man with a gun” notification to go out over police radio. The police respond, there is a standoff, the PTSD person then points or fires his weapon at the police, and they kill him. It is a form of suicide generated by the PTSD-Identity. Sometimes the PTSD afflicted person will even yell out “Shoot Me!” to the police. In today’s[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: One Thing Led To Another

Yesterday morning at around 1130 I had to remember some of my memories from when I was in the service.  Suffice that there were some good reasons that I had to do this.  In the space of 2 to 3 minutes I went from being articulate and able to hold a conversation to being confused, stuttering, and having troubles with my memory.  This led to numbness in my limbs, headache, the shakes, fear, and a prolonged weeping, crying jag.  Then it got worse.[Continue Reading…]

PTSD Spirituality: Military Grapples with PTSD Wounds

Take a look at this article by Greg Jaffe,  Military Reckons with the Mental Wounds of War, in today’s online Washington Post.  While it is meaningful from several angles I am struck at how useless some of the military doctors chose to be.[Continue Reading…]